Tuesday, April 15, 2008

Guilt and Craziness

I'm feeling a bit guilty right now because of how my mother's situation is affecting my girls. You may recall my post a few weeks ago about all of the field trips Sarah and Emily have coming up, and how I was trying to figure out how to pay for them and get a babysitter for Katie so I could chaperon a couple of them. Well, my mother agreed to babysit Katie for me, so that took care of that problem, and the rest was just financial.

Then, of course, my mother's mother died and her world began spiraling out of control with everything that fell into her lap to take care of. You may even recall me stating in this blog post that, "I just hope my mother doesn't work herself too hard taking care of [her father]." And if you've been reading, you know what happened there.

Anyhow, because of my mother's condition, I have had to cancel chaperoning for two events already. I know the girls understand, but I still feel bad about having to do it. I just hope that I don't end up having to cancel chaperoning Emily's Junior Achievement field trip. That was a lot of fun when I chaperoned for Sarah, and they really need all of the chaperons they can get for it.

On to the craziness... My mother started complaining about a pain in her upper arm (from her elbow up to her shoulder) a couple of days ago, so her internist sent her for an ultrasound to make sure that she hadn't developed a blood clot. The internist said that she doubted that was the case since mom had been on blood thinners ever since she was admitted to the hospital, but she wanted to do the ultrasound to rule it out. Today, they finally gave us the results of the ultrasound and she does indeed have a blood clot in her arm just above her elbow. The internist said she just doesn't understand how that could have happened while on the blood thinners, but it did, so now they have to treat that, too.

Needless to say, mom did not make it out of the hospital today. We'll try again tomorrow, I guess.

Edited to Add: My mother also started having a pain in the groin area of her left leg (opposite side from the angiogram plug) this afternoon while taking a walk around the cardiology ward. Hopefully she just pulled something and it's not another blood clot. A blood clot in the leg would be much more dangerous than one in the arm!


Karen said...

I'm sorry you have to go through this. I will continue to pray for your mom. If you need someone to watch Katie for you just let me know. I would be happy to help you out.

Andrea said...

Oh Melodie - I am so sorry to hear about the complications upon complications. I can help you with Katie whenever you need - probably not today just because both my boys are sick & throwing up. But really, I'd take her any time. You will all continue to be in our prayers. A friend of ours, who is terminally ill, just stopped by this morning and needed to borrow some wrenches for his car. Said it's still giving him trouble but one thing he said struck me - "yes, the car is having ongoing problems but it is for God's glory because look at all the lives it has touched that have offered to help us...it helped people reach out from their heart". Hang in there & the offer is still open for you to escape!

Debbie said...

I am sorry for all that you are going through..

First, Mommy guilt is the worse and we all put ourselves through that...But your daughters will understand and there is always some way to do something different with them, not so much making it up, just to spend that time that they might feel they missed...Us mom's are our worse enemy.

As far as your mom, Thank God she was still at the hospital where she will continue to seek the upmost attention and care...I hope she feel's better soon...

I know I have been away from the group for over 1/2 a year, but maybe once things settle with everyone, a bunch of us can go out for a yummy dessert and coffee!!!